Another Year

This morning I awoke to the sweet sounds of my son scurrying around the kitchen, trying to secretly make me breakfast in bed. 

Then this afternoon I was treated to a matinee showing of "Barbie and A Mermaid Tail" in my daughters room. 

I love how in their own little ways, they make me feel special. It has nothing to do with money spent, only that they care. And It's adorable to see how excited they get doing these sweet things on my birthday. I love them so much. 

Normally I am all about the birthday, I have never quite understood why people hate getting just one year older. 

I get it now...

I do not like this getting older thing. It has nothing to do with the lines slowly appearing on my face, or the white hairs I find popping up in my hair line, or the tired muscles in my back. It has everything to do with them. 

One more year gone by. 

A reminder that everything changes and we only get so long to do everything we hope together. 

I know, depressing right? 

Last night I was a mess. My usual night before my birthday excitement was replaced with anxiety, stress and sadness. What gives? I don't want to feel like this! Yes, I woke up to the 2 cutest well-wishers ever, but I still have yet to completely shake this feeling of the sands of time slipping away. So on this my 1,756th year (ok maybe i'm not that old), I have decided to make it count. To not sit around and waste time. To play with them more while they still want me to. Laugh every single day and be thankful for every blessing God has given me. 

Cherish it all. 

Even those days when you wake up and find you are another year older. 

au revoir, adieu, ciao, till next time... 


Silent Roar

*loud sigh* 

It has been one long week. I am actually looking forward to tomorrow (a Monday). 

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming :) Here's to a wonderful week ahead to all of you. 

au revoir, adieu, ciao, till next time... 


Constantly Changing And Growing

This year my family and I took on a large change, to educate the kids at home. Since this was such a big shift for us I have tried my best to keep every other aspect of our lives exactly the same. Afraid too much change would send us all into a tailspin. 
You cannot expect to achieve new goals or move beyond your 
present circumstance unless you change. -Les Brown 

What I learned is that we can not change something that important without it affecting many other areas of our life. Even though I have been fighting other changes for the sake of sanity, change is inevitable. 

The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, 
move with it, and join the dance. -Alan W. Watts

Friends: This is a complicated one. Both for the kids and myself. For the kids there has been some heart break. Especially for my daughter because she feels so much. Many of their "old school friends" faded away, ignoring them, or treating them as strangers. They tried to continue on with some activities at their old school, but it became too uncomfortable for them. Last night I had to hold my crying daughter in my arms as she sobbed "But mama! she was one of my best friends last year, now she won't even talk to me. Why? I don't understand, I'm still a person you know." I can't tell you how badly I want to call that little girl and say GROW UP! 

It is only through labor and painful effort, by grim 
energy and resolute courage, that we move on to better 
things. -Theodore Roosevelt 

But there have been very positive friend changes as well. The new friends the kids have made. The sweet people who have entered our lives. Also, the friendships that have endured through it all. These are the "good bits" we cling too.

Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; 
They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, 
They will walk and not become weary. -Isaiah 40:31

Interests: I can tell you I had no idea the things the kids once found joy in would change. Certain activities/sports they've always loved now seem less interesting. With that, new interests have emerged, they have new goals in their lives, new things they want to conquer and learn. 

Goals allow you to control the direction of change in your favor. -Brian Tracy

One of my most favorite changes though is the relationship the kids and I now have. We've always been close, but this is different. They let me in, they completely confide in me. I like it! We are each others classmates at times, being silly with one another. Yes there are days when we don't get along but for the most part it is wonderful. We had to get through the growing pains of these new changes in order to see how great it all could be. 

Risk always brings its own rewards: the exhilaration of breaking 
through, of getting to the other side; the relief of a conflict healed; 
the clarity when a paradox dissolves. -Marilyn Ferguson

There are still a few changes we are working through, each one we are tackling head on. I am just shocked at what an impact this chapter has had in so many areas. 

Change the changeable, accept the unchangeable, and 
remove yourself from the unacceptable. -Denis Waitley

I am learning to just roll with it, to be OK with change. Even when it scares me a little bit. 

au revoir, adieu, ciao, till next time... 



I am completely obsessed with British television.

Downton Abby
The Paradise
Doctor Who
Any Jane Austen book to TV adaptation

I have an unhealthy love of all things Disney. 
I could live in Cinderella's castle at the end of Main Street USA and be quite content. 

Foods that I could eat all day every day: 
sandwiches & eggs benedict (which I guess technically eggs benedict could be considered an open face sandwich.) 

There now, that was short and sweet. What are you obsessed with? 

au revoir, adieu, ciao, till next time...